July 16, 2008
01:49 pm
So now that I’ve had 24 hours for it to sink in slightly, I am thinking more rationally. Maybe. Last night was a really rough night. It wasn’t pretty. I finally took a sleeping pill at 5 a.m. Restoril will knock you on your ass, btw.
I called my aunt this morning out in D.C. She battled Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma a decade ago and since then has used her job in PR to work with a lot of cancer organizations. I updated her on my visit with the oncologist yesterday and she suggested that I get in contact with the Cancer & Fertility Society. I called them and they are getting me the name of a specialist here in the Milwaukee area. I want to talk to them so that I know for certain what my options are. I might be able to go through egg harvesting but that will most likely delay my treatment. I just need to know if there is anything I can do in case I want to have biological children in the future. I need to find out so that I don’t regret not taking the time to do so later on.
I’m also doing a lot of reading regading reconstructive surgery, chemotherapy, and menopause. Regarding the menopause, I consider this payback for all the times I’ve made fun of my Mom and her hotflashes.
Chemotherapy scares me. I hate throwing up and I’m definitely not ok with losing my hair. I’ve already decided that I’m going to go get my hair cut really short and let them use my hair for Locks of Love. And then as I go through chemo, I’ll already have gone through the hard part of getting used to not having long hair. There won’t be that much to lose. =/ I think Tim should shave his head the entire time I’m going through chemo. We’ll be the hottest looking bald couple EVER.
I’ve also been doing research regarding medical marijuana for use during chemo. The jury is still out on that one but I’ll be honest and tell you that I’m considering it.
That’s about it for now. I’m waiting for my doctor to call me back with the name of another oncologist that I can see for a 2nd opinion. I’ll update here again when I have any news.
